to think that
i felt guilty.
to think that
i regretted bringing the matter up the surface.
to think that
i brought you down.
to think that
i hoped for things to revert back to normal.

okay.
i am foolish enough to think that way.
apparently, its only my assumptions.

even so,
i didnt mean that message as an apology.
it wasn't meant to be anyway.
i dont feel a need to apologise.
it was meant to be a choice i've made,
to choose to put every thing behind.

but i feel so not appreciated.
well,
if things are to go on this way,
i dont mind.
and i wont care.
i took a step front.
but you forced me to retreat back home.

okay. whatever.
maybe its right to put everything behind.
i mean, everything.